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[∞] live inside your head

Album: Salival

By: Tool

Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone

Inside sleeping, my heart beating

You know that you tried to hide it

Couldn't you have said what you meant? Oh...

Time heals, time congeals around us

Endless hours of wasted moments

Understanding, not demanding

Your eyes tell what you feel inside

Setting sun can't shine, now you're gone

Inside sleeping, my heart beating

You know that you tried to hide it

Shouldn't you have said what you meant?
YOU LIED!

This is what I wrote in the last minutes of my 19's... it may be harmful and depressive for some, but I decided to blog it 'cuz, well, sometimes is the feeling that I get, just see the Pt. 2 for better feeling:

Another year has passed by...

How to evaluate it?
Is been... hard...and new...and different in a way...
The first half was...ok, normal, I think, no big deal...
The second?, well, let's just say that 2005 is tha Fucked Up year...

I found out many things that sometimes it seems like I didn't found nothing...
Well, the thing is, that a few of them may be a little good, not all of them are bad, and all are good for learning...
I think I'm getting to really know me, I know that: I'm a crappy musician, writer, designer, thinking mind, speaker (in any language), working man, spoke person, and most of it, a really crappy friend and tech support...
I was cold, yes, but nothing compare to the potential in me that I found...
Sometimes I feel like NOBODY matters anymore,
That I have no heart for anybody, I have no soul to save,
I don't care who is born, dead or re-born yesterday, today or tomorrow...
I feel the same,
The same piece of shit,
Just as always...

There is something missing in me, in my life,
And I don't know for sure what it is...
I found that I been feeling that for the most part of my teen years, and I found out this past year...

I open up myself in the last months, and even with that...

Well NOBODY really care, try or want to know the truth...
Who is blind?
Probably me... I'm no fool,
I do found out about everything on my own, there's never been need to send somebody to tell me what I already know, but, sometimes it helps I think...

Maybe, I don't believe in friendship & love and maybe I'm just disappointed for being passed over.

See I think drugs have done some good things for us, I really do, and if you don't think drugs have done good things for us do me a favor, Go home tonight, take all your albums, all your tapes, and all your CDs and burn them, 'cuz you know what?, the musicians who made all that great music that's enhanced your lives throughout the years... where real fuckin' high on drugs.

Today a young man on acid realized that all matter is merely energy condensed into a slow vibration.
That we are all one consiousness experimanting its self subadjectively.
There's no such thing as death; life is only a dream and we're the imagination of ourselfs.
Here's Tom with the weather.

I remember the times... the real good ones...

There was a time where I didn't have to worry about anything,

A time where I knew that everything was in it's place...

A time where I ask for a heart, where I ask for trust, and I didn't care about the lies...

There was a time (and kindda quoting somebody), were I was different, I really was...

But now?...

Throughout human evolution, there has been many changes in the human behavior,

At the begining, the people were strangers to each other, then came that stage where a 'frenger' is the word for it... and then in a smaller stage... the friends came, and all the people started to be happy with each other... but when people feel the need to talk to each other, and tell important things through a third person... then... people just go back to frengers, sad isn't?...

Well maybe, just maybe, nothing can be lost if at least one person belive in frienship,

The change starts with one.

I receive trust, and I find out that I had a heart, that I care por people, that I have more faces...

First I feel more that I was, then... well, I find out the reality, a piece of crap worth more than I can ever wish for, but at the end, I just accept the fact...

Is passion's lost?, all the trust is gone?,

I never lied, I never left, but I never lived and I was never loved and now I'm lost and hurt.

Ayer viernes 8 de Julio me dirigi al Oxigeno House, que se encuentra ubicado arriba del museo de cera sobre la calle Francisco I. Madero, entre la calle 1era y la calle 2da, y hay que aclarar que uno se pasa el lugar minimo 1 vez antes de saber donde es :P, pero la cosa es que después de 20 minutos de buscar estacionamiento, que no sirvio de mucho debo decir, por que lo termine moviendo a un estacionamiento publico que cobra 5dlls por 24hr (Una ganga realmente), y se encuentra entre 1era y Madero, por si alguna vez ocupan :)...
Bueno, el caso es que, el compañero y amigo Baz00ka nos invito a la presentación de la linea de Camisetas & Accesorios Baz00ka (www.baz00ka.com, para más información), que incluyo música en vivo y pasarela.
En la música en vivo se presentaron: Dr. Jeckill, Ika, Nuestra Sangre, Strap, Koñorteño, Los Kung Fu Monkeys, Faca y el DJ de una páginita de radio por internet la cual esta betada por mi mente...
La pasarela fue constante durante las presentaciones musicales, y todo el evento hubo visuales de logos Bazooka, excepto durante la presentación de Los Kung Fu Monkeys, que pusieron una pelicula china que la verdad me dio bastante risa de lo exageradamente estupida que se veia (y ni siquiera sabia que estaban diciendo, por la música y por que no habia subtitulos, jaja), pero bueno, Los KFM estuvieron bastante bien, en cada presentación las bandas y gente arriba del escenario hizo su esfuerzo por crear ambiente.
Hablando de ambiente... hubo buena cantidad de gente, se puede decir que la primera mitad del Oxigeno House se lleno, y hubo mosh y toda la cosa (yo nunca fui de mosh, pero por alguna razón prefiero eso a los bailes harcorescos, dunno).
Baz00ka se lucio y se llevo todo su cuarto, jaja, para que la gente jugara en el Atari y el Nintendo, mientras se sentaban en la cama de Baz00ka, oh, a ver cuando vamos a tu casa Baz00ka!, jaja...
También hubo la modelo oficial, una modelo que camino por el show vestida de muerta, muy al estilo Baz00ka, eso si, con su corazón en sangrentado en la mano.
Otra cosa incluida fue la tienda de accesorios de las bandas que tocaron y la tienda Baz00ka, que a lo que vi, tuvo buenas ventas, puesto que parecia que una buena parte de los asistentes tenian y/o compraron su camiseta Baz00ka.
En fin, un éxito para el joven Carlos Preciado, mejor y mundialmente conocido como Baz00ka, y desde aqui le deseo más éxito!.

El pasado sabado 2 de Julio se celebro en diversas ciudades alrededor del globo los conciertos del Live 8.

Primero, el proposito: El proposito principal de esta serie de conciertos es meter presión a la cumbre de G8, (Que comenzo esta semana), esta cumbre, conjuntada por los 7 paises más ricos del mundo (Alemania, Canadá, Estados Unidos, Francia, Italia, Japón, Reino Unido) y Rusia y buscan acabar con la pobreza en el continente africano, así Live 8 contribuye a que el resultado de esta cumbre sea, como dijo Bono: "Justica, no caridad".

Segundo, las ciudades: Los conciertos del Live 8 tomaron lugar en Londres, Cornwall, Versalles, Ontario, Berlin, Roma, Moscu, Tokio, Johannesburg, y Filadelfia, y el 6 de Julio en Edinburgo.

Tercero, los involucrados: he aqui los nombres que sobresalen;
Audioslave, U2, Velvet Revolver, The Who, Coldplay, The Cure, Muse, Placebo, Green Day, Keane, REM, Snoop Dogg, Snow Patrol, Stereophonics, Joss Stone, Travis, Dave Matthews Band, Alicia Keys, Black Eyed Peas, Run DMC, Bjork, y la reunión después de 24 años sin tocar juntos: Pink Floyd.

Audioslave tocó en Brandenburg Gate, Berlin, con un set de 4 canciones, el cual me parece bastante curioso:
Doesn't Remind Me.- Este es el próximo single de su nueva producción, Out Of Exile.
Like A Stone.- El hit de su primera producción Audioslave.
Black Hole Sun.- Una canción de Soundgarden, la ex-banda del vocalista Chris Cornell, en el concierto toco unicamente Cornell con una guitarra acústica, una versión que ha estado tocando en su ultimo tour.
Killing In The Name.- Canción de Rage Against The Machine, de donde salen los otros 3 integrantes de Audioslave (Tim Commerford, Brad Wilk y el mago de la guitarra: Tom Morello).
Así los asistentes se llevaron un pedazo de 3 bandas en un solo set, como comentario, Cornell no andaba muy bien de su voz, y Morello hizo un discurso bastante inspirador sobre el activismo local para el cambio mundial.

Pink Floyd tocó en el Hyde Park de Londres, también con un set de 4 canciónes:
Breath
Money
Wish You Were Here
Comfortably Numb
Notas: Nunca ensayaron las canciones, se esperanzaron a que lo recordarian, MTV estuvo constantemente cortando la presentación, los conductores hablaron por la mayor parte del set y cortaron a comerciales a mitad de Comfortably Numb, lo cual creo una serie de reacciones por parte de la audiencia, y MTV después de tantas criticas, decidio re-transmitir el Live 8, debido a las inconformidades del público, ja!, a ver si así aprenden...

Otra cosa, con motivo del Live 8, las ventas del álbum 'Echoes - Best Of' de Pink Floyd, subieron un 1,343% ...

What if?
Yeah, what if we forget?,
what if we ignore history?, and our past?,
what if everyone of us forget about the past?
what if we ignore the present?
and we should start thinking about the future...

Maybe we should start learning from the past, our own mistakes...
and from that, I can tell all of you, that the time to try even harder, is here...
Yeah, I can say I try, and I did, over and over again since the beginning,
and it's not working, it never did, and things, well, sure have change, but inside...
It's the same pain and love and confusion and fear and insecurity,
and I still have to face some demons...

I don't know if this happens, but, in case that any of you, in case you dear reader think, that you know me... well, let me tell you, to all of you, you don't know me, nobody really does, sure, you can know some aspects of me very well, and sure other knows a face of me that most don't, but, I just can't think of anybody, who can say without problem, that he or she 'knows me'...
The song can't lie, I am cold, I am ugly, I always get confused when it comes to feelings and love to be precise...
And yes, every smile that comes from me, potentially hides a bold-faced lie...
My heart wasn't really open to anyone, until someone actually win it, and I didn't and I don't know what to do, I never really knew... this was the first time of something I started to think it will never happen..

So... what good does the past did here?...
I maybe need to get away from the past and from the present in order to survive the future...
That's an idea...

I just hope that nobody get to know my cold side, my cruel side, my "evil" side...
Non of you can even imagine the potential in me, and there is people who will never know it, from my own decision...
But if any of you dear reader, get to know that side, don't take it personal, please, it's just my answer, my last reaction, that will mean that my heart is no longer in funtion, and my soul vanished away...

But that ain't happining soon, now, I'm good, I cannot be disturbed, I guess...
I just need to forget it.

Two, three, or maybe four minutes, hours, days, months, or years will maybe pass for me to forgive you...

You think that you can come here and claim this your own?,

My feelings, my power, my blood thirsting mouth?...

Why you want so badly to hurt me?, when you know I have a need to love you?,

you make me so fucking happy and when you leave... I don't even wanna remember that,

IT HURTS,

and I don't want to ever feel pain again,

coming from you, or anyone...

This is WRONG,

I don't have a need to be here,

you don't have a need to read this,

but maybe when you do, you will realize I DID loved you, and I DID wanted you to marry me,

maybe to have little kids that could eat worms and kill barbies with a hammer...

All I wanted is that you started to look inside of me,

but now is to late,

now I am empty and I'm so full of anger...

Thank you.

Yo era diferente.

OK, the trial days are here, well, actually, they were here since some time now, just that now we expect to see some results, some actions from all the parts...

Some crazy ideas have come to my mind, and I been considering all, it's time that my mind take control... it's in times like these that I have to be smart, isn't enough with the fact that I know what's going on, and what I have to do, now it's time to take some actions, but I have to be careful, I need to make sure that the only one who it's going to get hurt, it's me... which is hard, but it has to be done.

The near and mid-term future is in my hands, any wrong decisions will result in chaos.